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The Holy Grail in the hands of a masturbator For me, a higher spiritual consciousness has resulted from a consciousness of masturbation.I understand spirituality as recognition of inner balance and a dropping of the illusions that foster dualism.My dualism's were: Believing that I needed a special partner to feel good about myself sexually. Feeling compelled to collect sexual experiences i.e. sexual materialism. Attaching myself to an achievement motif in sex. I have come to see these as the sexual illusions learned early and subtly in my life. These illusions inhibit spiritual growth.In recent years I discovered masturbation as self-befriending. I came to enjoy my own sexual company! My preference changed to wider appreciation of others and especially myself. I feel needs now, but not neediness. My sexual collecting changed to serenity and openness to my experience, without having to engineer it and without a feeling of compulsion. My goal-orientation in sex has been transformed into letting go and effortlessness in sex.My earlier experiences had been based upon a sense of scarcity, a lack in me that could only be filled from without. The more recent experiences grew from a sense of plenitude; I am enough.The oriental masters see spirituality as a return to this pristine experience of non-dual plenitude. It is the reclamation of child-like wonder, the ease that allows us to be so permeable to our experience that we become one with it. As long as what I need is outside myself, it can never be enough; as long as what I need is not outside, I am enough.Self-nurturing, joyful masturbation can engender this consciousness. It is a declaration that we are adequate, that we have the sources of power and pleasure within ourselves. This is the self-esteem that sets the psychic scene for self-transcendence and divinity.In ancient times, the penis was adored as a god. God gives life. The penis gives life. The fertility equation is simple.Osiris, in Egyptian mythology, created the universe by an act of masturbation. The pharaohs who were revered as gods, and who had the power to give or take life, wore the symbol of and erect serpent on their headdress.The Israelites in exile fought the Penis/Fertility religions of their neighbors. Their story of the lost Eden made this Penis/Serpent god a villain.It is important to note here that to the pagan ancients, the male penis was not a gay or female fetish. It was an object of universal devotion, radically connected to the continuance of life on this planet.The penis is still such an object. How? Straight men love their penises. They may not seek other men's' penises as pleasure objects, but they do have a curiosity about them. Interest and desire are really two ends of the same spectrum!To worship something is to acknowledge its gift dimension in our lives. To love the gentiles and to enjoy them is to appreciate them as a gift. There is power, freedom and grace in such a gesture. It is an initiation to take a step beyond ourselves. This step is transcendence,Ecstasy, divinity as the apex of humanity.I always feared there was something wrong with me for loving the penis. I thought my interest was irrational before I knew that the heart has reasons unknown to the mind. I worried about how particular features of the male genitals arrested my attention and held my interest spellbound.For example, pubic hair on a smooth body is more than a simple patch of hair to me. It fascinates and excites me. It is a fetish, and yet more. I see it as an abstract reality: it seems sudden since it appears on the body full grown - as if from nowhere. It is thus a burning bush, holding a vision of something else, beyond sexual satisfaction.Also, it remains still during sex while the penis and scrotum move. This feels to me like `reliability'. It is a center of accessibility and it so feels protective.In short, I see pubic hair as an epiphany, a Garden of Eden, a Golden Fleece. It does not cause spontaneous orgasm as a simple fetish does. It is a locus of meditation.As my sexual esteem grows. I like this feeling. A little hair has become a node of many warm realities; it is sacramental, a visible sign of a multileveled reality.Leonardo De Vinci says in one of his notebooks:" The penis has often a life and an intelligence of its own, separate from man, and it would appear that a man is in the wrong in being ashamed to give it a name or to exhibit it, seeking rather constantly to cover and conceal what he ought to adorn and display with ceremony as a ministrant."Another feature of penis-veneration directly links us to masturbation. Many of us have gone through a long night of feeling hotly obsessed with sex and the penis - or more precisely `COCK'. I do not mean horniness. To be horny is to desire sex. Such desire can be fulfilled by sex. I am referring here rather to a voracious obsession with COCK. It is not a desire for sex but a physical, emotional and spiritual desire for union. It cannot be fulfilled by sex because it is the fulfillment of sex. It feels like an insatiable and overwhelming desire that throws us off balance.Actually, it is the mortal side of immortal longings. It is the deep wish to be one with the source of sexual power within and outside ourselves. It is thus, too enormous to be satisfied; it is enormous enough only to be a god. It is the HOLY GRAIL, the ancient symbol of balance and completeness.Even one night of desire like this can be painful in the extreme. The pain comes from mistaking the insatiability as a defect in us. I have found that masturbation changes this. Prolonged solitary or multiple masturbation is a ritual that draws in our projections and relaxes us into the further reaches of our sexuality. It does this by putting us in touch with a destiny and a quest at the same time.How does it happen?We can never become COCK, but we can go beyond ourselves through it. Masturbation validates us as sexually rich. At the same time it is limited. It is thus, the point of contact of the mortal and immortal parts of ourselves. It does what God does: it becomes One-With-Us.Psychological maturity must happen in a realm that is ours alone. Masturbation is a most appropriate rite of transition to sexual maturity. Most of us learned to masturbate on our own, not with our parents. Thus, it was a crucial part of our individual unique development.To believe that it is wrong to masturbate is to impugn our own masturbation. Yet, many of us were taught to despise and avoid what we most enjoyed. To love masturbation after such conditioning is to make a strong choice in favor of freedom and our own personal evolution. It is a choice for self-care, instead of one for submission to the furies of self-doubt and self-abnegation. It pushes out the limits set on us by those who feared our burgeoning sexual powers. Masturbation without guilt, but with joy; reverence for COCK without guilt, but with excitement: these are the hallmarks of sexual-spiritual knighthood.This brings us to one final sense in which the penis is a god. It abides through our personal history as uniquely ours. We are creative with it. We redeem ourselves with it. We go beyond ourselves with it. We are supported and enriched by its pleasures and potential.Robert de Ropp wrote in Sex Energy: "We may assume, on the basis of Neolithic art, that man has long been fascinated by his own penis. Its extraordinary capacity for erection, its independence...set it apart from the other organs of the body. Thus, the phallus early became an object of worship... It was on account of its magical power that the phallus ( was worn as the ) fascinum... It attracted the glance of stray beholders... From this aspect of the phallus cult are derived the words `fascinate' and `fascination'."Fritz Perls, the founder of Gestalt Therapy, suggest that psychological wholeness demands the ability to go with one's fascinations. Fascination with COCK is a crucial feature of sexual wholeness.To follow this fascination, is to be in search of the Holy Grail.Masturbation is the Hero's journey.
